The Mindful Carnivore: A Vegetarian's Hunt for Sustenance
thought he鈥檇 crafted an Edenic lifestyle鈥攗ntil a showdown with a buck-toothed rodent helped change his mind. Vegans for years, Cerulli and his wife tried to tread lightly on the planet by buying local and organic and tending homegrown vegetables at their Vermont home. But wild thieves鈥攚oodchucks, for instance鈥攔aided their gardens. The idea of destroying the marauders turned Cerulli鈥檚 stomach, but so did another thought: If he wasn鈥檛 disposing of them, another farmer was. 鈥淭hey were doing the killing, keeping the blood off my hands,鈥 he writes in Unsettled by that reality鈥攁nd ailing from a lack of protein鈥擟erulli plunges into a period of emotional introspection and reflection on food, where it comes from, and the part he plays. Seeking insight from family and friends, literature, and history, Cerulli reevaluates his personal philosophy on meat eating and hunting. Channeling his boyhood as an angler, he brings fish back into his diet, edging closer to mammals, namely deer. Eventually he sets off into the woods to face a hard truth: Death is integral to life, killing part of sustaining. 鈥淓ating fellow creatures made me palpably aware of my own physical presence, waking me to the obvious,鈥 he writes. 鈥淚 am also an animal who eats. I have a footprint here.鈥